Saturday, March 29, 2014

Someone Like You

Dear Mom, Happy Birthday! I really miss you. I think about you every single day, and see you in the mirror smiling back at me. I'm so thankful for you, and for what we had. Our path wasn't normal, and we weren't going to be on any hallmark cards for mother/son relationships but we were good. We were special, and once all the bullshit was gone it was wonderful. I forgave you many years ago, and I'm so happy that I was able to tell you that before you moved on to the next "trip." I don't believe in much, and I know that always pissed you off but I'm coming around. I still believe you are out there somewhere, I'll come to the ocean soon and talk. You used to say to tell me to find something/someone that makes you happy, and I have. I'm doing well, I lost control for a bit but I'm getting better everyday. I wish we could talk for real. I have so much to say, to tell you, to share with you, but for now I'll just hope that you can read blogs from wherever you are :) Although you were absent many years, I have no regrets about us. I learned so much from this, I got an amazing brother, who also has made me a better person. Have you heard? I'm going to be an uncle! Your going to be a grandma (I'm sure you thought I would be first, sorry about that). For the best! Remember when we were going to see Guns n' Roses at Knickerbocker on the WIZN tour bus? That was going to be my first concert, I'm still angry with Slash and Axl for cancelling. Assholes. Oh well. I wished we had more time, but it wasn't to be. I'm glad I finally got to know you. I miss trips to the Great Escape, camping, garage sales, flea markets, Michael Jackson, shooting stars, but mostly I just miss you. I love you, happy 54th. -Dan-

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